Hi mum still thinking of you every single day every minute to be honest so don’t believe you are gone mum my hearts missing a massive chunk it will never fill back up I would give up anything to speak to you again for half hour it wasn’t your time to leave us mum you were to young a know you had health problems but you had thought it so many times and pulled through every time and we’re okay you would always come home from the hospital and text that’s us home son al never get that text a don’t want to believe just thinking of you there was so much a wanted to say to you and tell you how much a love you a will tell the kids everyday how much you love them and how much of a brilliant nana you are and how much of an amazing mum you are a still don’t believe it a don’t know what am going to do without you you were always there to help me no matter what a done weather it be me and Megan or me getting into trouble cause ave had a drink you were always there a didn’t know how much you hated me being a bouncer am sorry a had you worrying every night I stood on a door I’m sorry for all the wrong ave done mum all the times a never texted you back or never answered the phone didn’t come down to see you I wish I could go back and change it a would never let the phone just ring or no answer your text just really sad ruby is so wee she will never get to meet you and speak to you how Ryan did me and Megan will tell her everyday how much of a wonderful woman you are and tell her loads of story’s about you and how crazy caring loving you are a will make sure she knows who you are and knows everything about you wee Ryan asks about you everyday mum and every night he points to the biggest and brightest star and says my nanas watching me he loves you and just wants you here I just want you here a don’t care what anyone thinks or says a wasn’t ready to lose you a still need you here mum dad still needs you nats jay the bairns we all do you fought so hard every time a don’t know what was different this time a know you wouldn’t have given up a just want you back but we will see each other soon mum a hope you keep a place for me and wait for me up there and we can carry on where we left off at least your at peace now mum are pain free you always done your best for us you always did you brought us up proper and made us how we are you done the best mum am so grateful and thankful I now know why yous were hard wasn’t cause yous were being bad yous were looking after us to protect us make sure when we grow up we are brought up and not dragged up thank you for making me who I am you should be proud thank you mum for everything we always got the best for brithdays Christmas you and dad made sure we always had money for sweets and if we wanted toys or to go to the ice rink you always gave us even if it was your last or your stash of birthday money it was always the same Shh don’t tell dad haha you mean the world to me mum a hope you knew that a loved you with every once of my heart I will never ever forget you never I will always think of you everyday every min always thinking of the good times we had mum and even the bad as well you don’t have to worry about dad mum we are looking after him I will always make sure he’s okay I promise you no matter what I will make sure he’s fine mum love you always mum so so much your the best love you mumXxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx always and foreverxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Ryan