Sorry a never wrote yesterday mum couldn’t do it They say it’s ment to get easier as time goes on but it doesn’t it’s getting harder so many times I’ve picked my phone upto text you and tell you something about the bairns or I have seen a sweet you would like in the shop or some mental gadget and then I realise and it hits just like it happened mum a would give anything just to see you for a hour mum and just speak to you and ask for your advice and so you could met ruby she’s brilliant you would have loved her she’s crazy funny and so caring just sad yous never got to meet mum both of them mila rose as well she’s brilliant to you would have been proud of them just really sad the way things have turned out since you’ve been gone mum a miss you so much chick and think about loads during the day darling and always will love you so much mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx