Hello darling it’s been a month now today you lost the fight you done so well mum fought so hard really hard we miss you so much it’s unreal the kids and Megan miss you so much a keep going to text you then open your texts and remember a won’t get a text back would be brilliant just to speak to yoy one more time see you one more time but a know that won’t happen until we meet at the gates a just miss you so much can’t stop thinking of you lying in your coffin looking so at peace and pain free but a would do anything to bring to bring you back honest we all miss you biggest chunk of ma hearts been ripped out keep thinking you and dad still had loads of time left yous should have been wee old people just wish you never had any health problems then you would still be here maybe if we had phone doctors more about your chest or took you up the hospital but you wouldn’t have wanted that ruby was going crazy at your picture kept pointing to it a keep saying that’s nana she kept doing it feel sad that she will never get to grow up with you and really know you and talk to you we will make sure she knows who you are mum just wish you were here to do it just sad but your at peace now and no hurting that’s the way need to think of it now but love you millions darling so much and miss you so much but we will see each other soon mum love you always darling always and forever megan and the kids love you millions as well they miss you so much to mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx